Not sure, fears, and random stuffage

Anyway, I was thinking about posting this on twitter, then I realized I probably have more followers on their than subscribers on here. So this is probably a safer place to share. So here we go, when I was growing up I had a serious irrational fear of the dark. Now I know what you might be thinking, it wasn't of things that could be hiding in small cramped dark places jumping out at me. I mean I would just sit and read in my dark closet for hours (during the day) just for fun. It wasn't completely dark either. 

But rather I had a fear of darkness itself. My grandmother helped me get over that fear when I was about 9-10. She would sleep in my room with me when she would visit our house. I am really greatful to her for that, as I don't think I would have been able to confront that fear otherwise. But to be honest, even now at 28 years of age, there are nights where I still have issues with sleeping in the dark. This usually happens when my bf is off staying at a friends for some reason or another and I am left alone with my very irrational thoughts. 

Now normally I would just spend a couple of hours reading until my brain finally shuts down, but that is not really an option tonight as I have work in the morning. So I am hoping that writing this post helps to aliviate some of the insomnia and allow me atleast 5-7 hrs of decent sleep. 

Although it is 12:30 am now, so that is not looking promising. Add to that the fact that I am still slightly freaked out by my whole work situation, and the sounds coming from the adjoining walls in this apartment. 

I am almost positive that this post will make zero sense in the morning to anyone let alone me. Well I am off to bed, and as always Luv Ya!

Qotd: do you have any fears that you are afraid of sharing with people?