So sick of being the dumb one...

Yep today was a wonderfully super day (dripping sarcasm) now don't get me wrong it started out great, fantastic even. My first decent night sleep in a while, gender in literature was super fun, I even got my new resume typed and printed for the career fair today. And ended up with a lot of decent prospects for work. Then I went for my reading test in Japanese class, reading passages which I knew and understood very well this morning and was set for it, but as soon as I get in front of the teacher I freeze and nothing comes out right at all. Every time it's in front of the teacher my mind goes blank and I can't speak or translate anything. It sucks. but that's not even the worst part, it's like she has to pour lemon juice on a paper cut with how the end of the exam went,
"oh dear, I don't know what to do with you, did you even study?" she asks, "you know you were suppose to be able to translate this."
"yes I studied, I studied for about ten hours this week," I answered.
"did you understand it?"
"yes a little."
"well there is your problem."
well gee thanks ma'am I soo needed you to tell me that when I was already so frustrated with myself that I could not even see straight, let alone think straight. next time why dont you just give me a nice paper cut then pour lemon juice on it. sheesh. well since I have gotten that off my chest I feel better... well that a good cry, and a couple hours of retail therapy to get me back to my old self again. yea I cried what can I say when I am frustrated dont ask me how I am doing or how something went.


needless to say I am tired of being the dumb one who cant get anything right...